Saturday, December 23, 2006 . 12:50 PM
SORRY LING& CHAR!
kinda pangseh you 2 cos of sean?
i wanted t call bck,
but didnt have th mood t talk anymore.
was damn tired alr.
after kup-ing mark& pris`s call jiu slp alr.
sean`s call came i jitao wake up.
thn he seh tht time i was so freaked out.
kept asing me th same qsts.
said those stupid stuff.
asked him poon gum drink smoke or play drugs.
he say dont have.
in th end tell me poon gum.
i was so dulan tht i cried.
i dont know wht th fuck did i cry for.
i didnt want t.
i felt so stupid.
he`s nt my stead or wht.
yet im crying for him.
wht th fuck.
th last time i cried was mnths ago?
for my ex.
&he`s th first guy tht aint my stead& yet im crying for him.
felt damn stupid for myself.
why shld i even cry in th first place?
he wont even care.
&after kupping his call i was stupidly waiting for him t call bck.
i kupped his call hoping tht he wld call bck& ask why i kup.
but he didnt.
stl say wna hear my voice?
jiaoweis.
i kupped his call at 0330& waited like fuck for 1 hr.
&i finally gave up at 0430.
im nvr ever gng t wait for his call agn.
why shld i?
i dont get anything in return after all th waiting.
he dont even know.
i didnt ask him t promise me nt t touch glue agn.
cos i dont wna get any empty promises agn.
i`ve gt enough broken promises.
&i dont need anothr one.
he can just brk his promise& i`ll be th one dulan& sad or whtevr.
so whts th point of asking him t promise me?
he can make th promise without me telling him t.
but he didnt.
but im nt gna talk t him if he ever plays with it.
say im crazy or wht.
WHATEVER.
i know im nt his stead or whoever.
&i shldnt be controlling him or so over reacting over him.
i rly didnt wna cry.
i didnt wna let him know i cried.
CONTINUED.
met pris at compass,
jiu go mall meet ling& sher.
bought sher`s stuff& ling`s stuff.
jiu go buy dinner.
went longjohn, thn saw this guy working in th kitchen.
i mean pris saw.
jiu ask me look, say look like gelvin.
i see alr jiu tell her is gelvin.
plus i see th name tag is gelvin lor.
thn th guy serving me at counter jiu go call th guy tht looks like gelvin.
he jiu give me tht face.
call him& sms also bo reply, cos work halfway.
so i only can wait for him t off thn reply me.
its gelvin la can.
nobody wld look so alike one lor.
train-ed bck home.
chiong all th way t platform thn th train door close alr.
-.-"
4 siaocharbors.
in th end left me& sher lrt home.
ran for th ltr, lucky we gt it.
extended my crfew for christmas countdwn t 2am,
think gna extend it longer.
3am maybe?
update tmr(:
